Bleed Between The Lines

Suicide is a bit of an anomaly in the human condition. We are built with a desire to survive, reproduce and create happy feelings inside of ourselves and yet we have a spiritual and chemical breaking point. When pain becomes too much we begin to feel the desire to stop the pain at all costs. This can cause us to become angry, abusive, violent and if we repress our anger we can even start to contemplate ending our lives.
I know the feeling of wanting to kill myself, and I’ve dealt with it more than my fair share of times but one thing that always helped me was to realize that my feeling of hopelessness came from a problem. I would have a feeling of being alone, or being hopeless that was derived from my situation and it became to stressful to cope with. When I couldn’t find an end to my situation, I looked to suicide. But I knew that suicide, much like pitying myself, wasn’t going to fix the problem. I knew that God had a way to fix my problem, my condition and just me in general. Looking to a way out gave me hope and hope lessened my pain. We all have a hope in Christ and that is something to live for.
If you are feeling thoughts of suicide just know that most people who consider suicide find the strength to go on. You are not alone and if you feel like you are you can call 1-800-SUICIDE in the US and if you’re reading this from another country you can always check your local listings for a crisis hotline. God is the great physician and he can heal you and you’re not alone.